Bunny Guilt
Antonio Bouxa
I've always had a nose for transitions
Change leaves an impression in the air
An imprint of the dying
It is the opposite of petrichor
A rancid burning, like maggots
Struck by lightning
Like the maggots I found
Inside my utility closet
Dropping from an unfamiliar sack
That was once the body of a rabbit
It sounds like the soft and cautious
Movement of the body in the bedroom
You used to sleep in before you
began spending your nights on the couch
The ominous scraping of rearrangement
Of heavy furniture that fills a space
Like the scent of death that has permeated
My basement stairs
I found it under some collapsed insulation
That came in from the ceiling where it
Must have fallen and been trapped
When no one had any reason to open that door
Like the doors kept closed now where
You could once look into every room
And breathe in the peaceful silence
Of a stable and peaceful stagnation
The doors you spend years slowly
Shutting, in case any of the corners
Housed a disruption you were unwilling
To confront. Until the final weeks
When you realized you hadn't opened them
In months and ran around the house
Birthing light unto the spiders
That had made home in the neglect
Like the scratching I heard the two weeks
Before I found the rabbit, but couldn't find
Where it was coming from, and believe that
It must have hidden when I checked
But maybe the rabbit also understood
The weight of change, and what can grow
Beyond a closed door, and maybe
The maggots deserved their feast as well
Antonio Bouxa is a Wisconsin writer and alumni of UW Platteville. He lives in Madison, Wisconsin with his 2 dogs, 4 cats, and 1 partner. His work has appeared in Aesthetica Magazine, Glass Mountain and The Driftless Review. His debut poetry collection Bone Soup is available at most major book sellers.
Jeff Weiland graduated from UW-Platteville Baraboo Sauk County in the 1980's and has always enjoyed photography.